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27
Apr
11

Shit that matters #1: My story “Aprile del 1524″ was published a couple weeks ago on Everyday Genius. This is the first part of my book (or at least it’s the most recent revision, and I think it’s going to need to go through a couple more). It’s about Giovanni Verrazano. Not a lot of people were picking up on that, but that’s sort of exactly what I was hoping for. What’s important about this story (not mine, but Verrazano’s) is that it was the first time White People (capital W, capital P) laid eyes on Staten Island. I’m happy to be on Everyday Genius: about a year ago, I made a list of publications I dreamed of seeing my work on and Everyday Genius was at the top of that list. It’s exciting stuff for me.

Shit that matters #2: I recently received a scholarship to attend The Juniper Summer Writing Institute, where I’ll receive tutelage from folks like Noy Holland, Mark Doty (I pray), Rachel P. Glaser, and Heather Christle (I hope). This is important shit to me because these are four people whose work I’ve frequently cited as “influential,” and I don’t think I could be happier to have the opportunity to study with these brilliant, beautiful people.

One of two pet-friendly homes Mike Young and I might end up sharing: $1000 – 2br/1bt (Hampden) Comfortable townhome located 2 blocks from “the avenue”. Situated on a wide tree-lined street, this home also offers a separate lower level entrance from the front (ideal for office, etc..). 2 Bedrooms with a full bath upstairs, modern kitchen with all appliances, finished basement with flush. Hardwood floors thru-out.

A Couple of Run-On Clauses about Spring: I often wonder whether or not I am doing enough and this becomes scary and daunting because I am so frequently exhuasted, like I am now (although that comes from physically excerting myself) but what’s good and beautiful is that almost everything that can bloom is in blooming, and in the South there is very little else more perfect than a day like today, which ended up being a day with a breeze that fanned the low, loose ponytails of all the soft-skinned girls that spent their study day sunning on the sprawling green grass between the library and spiritual center– and what’s lovely about these girls (women!) is that they are idealistic enough to tell me in poorly-lit rooms that they work at charter schools because they care about children damnit and it breaks their hearts it truly breaks their hearts; sometimes I’ll see my friend the librarian at the library that these girls spread out in front of like daffodil seeds and this friend of mine–30, married, father of an infant girl–will sometimes try to talk to these women that look like girls to me but are legally women, and if these women are reading Harper’s or The Atlantic he will make book recommendations; some of these women are pretty and–although young–they will look me in the eye and smile, and it’s when I have it in me to return the favor that I realize the district is a lovely place and there isn’t a whole lot to complain about.

06
Apr
11

an interview with Mark C.

In Capital Letters (ICL): What do you want remember about the program in 10 years?

Nothing ever got my pulse racing (in a good way) like hockey. Well, nothing except Beyonce, but that wasn’t until I was twelve or so. Then, all of a sudden, it was like I opened my eyes one day and noticed that the world is full of beautiful girls, and I’ve had a hard time thinking about anything else ever since. So it’s kind of hard to balance school and work sometimes. But sometimes, like, if I’m going to the White House and I’m in there doing a tour and stuff, that’s like school.

ICL: From being part of the program and participating in workshops and the Visiting Writers series, what do you think are the most important things you have learned about your own writing? How has your writing changed?

MC: That I got up there and sang my little eighth-grade butt off, thinking this was possibly the greatest moment of my entire life — of anyone’s life — better than hockey, better than ‘Star Wars,’ better than Grandma’s turkey and gravy.

ICL: What is your favorite quote or line from a book?

“Dare to be a sucky skateboard or a lousy video editor or a completely crappy golfer. If we do only the stuff we’re good at, we never learn anything new.”

ICL: What have you read most recently that inspired you?

I try to read all of my fan mail. A lot of them send me candy, which I’m not allowed to eat ’cause my mom says it might be poisonous.

ICL: Tell us something about yourself that most people don’t know.

I have dumped a girl over the phone – it’s terrible isn’t it? We got into an argument during a phone call so I basically said, I don’t wanna be with you any more,’ and she cried. I saw her after that and it was a bit awkward, but we’re not enemies now, so that’s cool. But I wouldn’t recommend it, it’s very mean!

ICL: If your life had a theme song right now, what would it be?

The day I was born, Celine Dion was solid at #1 with “The Power of Love.” Not a bad start.

09
Dec
10

i am growing a long beard because i feel more and more like i need to fix myself: specifically the ontological side of myself, by which i mean why must you be the type of person who fixates on philosophical terms in a never-ending span of short phases?

i have always struggled with plot points. i remember being a kid and trying to dig, or draw or color something within the lines (a duck maybe, or a ninja turtle). these were constant struggles for me. my seventh grade teacher once caught me copying someone’s spelling homework in the coat closet. it’s behind closed doors where our truest failures come out, so now i often rarely go outside.

i worry for you if this all makes sense, i do.

i read recently (Michael Shermer, I think) that the quantitative difference between creative geniuses is their ability to distinguish which ideas are transcendently brilliant, and that picking and choosing between them was in essence their greatest accomplishment. and here i am, unsure of which color undershirt I should wear while I take the dog out for a walk.

you may have other opinions, but i do not think and i have never thought that i am more brilliant (or better-looking or taller) than you, nor am i trying to play the role of the tortured artist. i am a craftsman, one with fickle insecurities and a checklist of ways in which I’ve convinced myself I’ve failed you.

i now wear this truth on my chin.

(edit: but i’ll love you forever, Bethany Cosentino)

28
Oct
10

i am pulling what i assume–or hope–will be the last all-nighter of my academic career. i am not doing it by choice, but because of mistakes i’ve made again.  the story also calls for it.

i haven’t posted here because writing has not come easy for me lately. yet i should not complain; i should instead push on.

today, at around 8 PM, i will pass around a stack of papers. it will be the last time i do this for a group of people that do not refer to me as “professor.”  or i hope. i do not feel dread and i do not feel relief. it does not feel over: it feels like a sense, or an organ inside me that needs to proper nourishment, so i can function, so i can survive. but after today, it will all be over and i cannot do anything to stop it.

back at chester, i would relish these mornings. live for them, even. i would smoke cigarettes with pretty girls, and when the sky turned into that indigo it always turned into at dusk i would try to impress them. i would tell them that looking beyond the trees would remind me of the cover of my copy of waiting for gordot. i would use prepositions in excess and blame it on my accent.

there are people in my life now that i would stay awake this late for, that i would listen to intently and speak to in an engaged manner. yet they (and i) are older: out of shape, their face beginning to wrinkle, their hairlines receding, their teeth starting to look “more brittish.” some of them are about to be parents. some of them, i never respond to their e-mails.

will i ever look as beautiful to you again as i did the first time you looked at my calf muscles? will you ever again think, “those thighs of his, they look like a women’s (sic)?”  will i ever remind you again of the boys and girls you once wanted to let fondle you, and will you ever think of submitting to those adolescent desires, despite your age and your self-assumed maturity?

i swear to god, it’s not us–it’s DC

this is it; it is all over; from here, we will be more alive than we were the day before yesterday, but no more alive than we will be the day after tomorrow. it is now, and it is soon.

23
Sep
10

I’m reading tomorrow night, for no longer than 8 minutes.

Bohemian Coffee House
1821 N. Charles St.
Baltimore, MD

if you come, i will kiss you, where ever you like me to kiss.




Events

10/10/11 (Mon.) 8x8 Reading in DC, details TBA

10/15/11 (Sat.) @ 5: 510 Reading in Baltimore w/ Laura Ellen Scott, John Rowell, and Jackie Wang. Minás Gallery, 815 W. 36th Street, Hampden, MD

Contact

markc[at]biglucks.com

immediate.


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